To augment or not to augment.... That is the question!

Well... This post settles it, there is no topic that is off limits here. :o)  I keep saying I'm going to work on my filter, but hey, if after 36 years I haven't figured that out?  Its probably never going to happen...

Today's musings will be focused around breasts... Yep, you read that right, BREASTS.

In the second half of my marriage (post-two-nursing-kids and weight gain), my ex and I had a running "joke" about me getting a boob job.  I'm not sure which of us first started the joke looking back, but I had regularly said that if I actually got to my goal weight, I was going to get breast augmentation as my reward.

Now that goal weight has finally been achieved, I've come back around to pondering this idea.  Like most women, I lose fat in the areas I least want to.  Man, do I really wish you could strategically relocate some of this squishy goodness??  In losing 50+ pounds, "the girls" have seen a heck of a cup size hit since January.  I was actually serious enough about augmentation that I even consulted a surgeon in August.  After shelling out $60 for an initial exam and him repeatedly telling me that I didn't need the surgery, he convinced me to wait for 3 months before deciding.  I scheduled the surgery before leaving the office and have been doing a lot of thinking on this since then...

The more I've thought about the real reason behind "why" I wanted augmentation, the more it became clear to me that I didn't ever want this for ME.  I wanted it because I thought it would make someone else happy.  UGHHH.... Story of the past 14 years, seriously.  When I acknowledged this very real truth, I felt a new sense of freedom.  One more weight of my past has been shed.  Never again will I let someone else's perception of what I look like cause me to doubt my own beauty or self-worth.  I am not what others perceive me to be.  I am what God created me to be and I'm perfect in my imperfection, just as He designed.

So, I guess not to augment is my answer.  And I'll thank Victoria Secret for making me look way more endowed than I am while clothed and I'll trust that God will send a man my way that loves me naked  as-is. :o)